When you start to slip again

Recently I’ve been really struggling to keep the highs and lows under control. I’ve been cycling again. I even freaked out on my fiance because I said I was going to skip my meds that night so I didn’t have to adjust what time I took them the next day while he was telling me that I need to take them. Now, I’m aware that he was in the right and just looking out for me, I can’t remember what all I said that night while screaming at him but I know he almost left me because of it. I hate this illness, I hate when I start slipping up. I wish I was “normal,” however, I know if that was the case I wouldn’t be able to speak up and help others this way.
So, I did what I had to, I met with my psychiatrist and adjusted some medication, even though I hate it, and made sure that I have an appointment soon with my therapist. I just wish that these things weren’t necessary for me to live a, mostly, stable life. It sucks. It’s hard work, despite what some might think. But it’s what those of us with a mental illness have to do to survive in this world.
To those of you who are slipping up, make sure you take care of yourself. Make sure you do what you need to. Do everything you can to get back to where you need to be. It will be worth it in the end.
You got this🙂

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